‘I had no love for myself … now I have peace’: former Ireland rugby player Ryan Caldwell’s journey back from the edge

Ahead of the publication of his warts 'n all autobiography, the retired Ulster second-row on his recovery from addiction, depression and incarceration to find a new life as a meditation teacher

The retired second-row on his recovery from addiction, depression and incarceration to find a new life as a meditation teacher “Carefree,” says Ryan Caldwell when I ask him what word is tattooed across his fingers. He looks up from his hands on a rainy morning in Belfast. The…